slow nothings

weeknotes 13

from june 7 to 13, 2026

hello, friends.

i'm trying out another format once again. i used to want everything in my life to be uniform (maybe i still do?) but then i realized that with change comes progress. and it's kinda fun to look back and see how far you've gone. after all, life's too short to go crazy over not having the same weeknotes format i started when i was twenty-three.

anyways, the week went by in a blur. it was so far the most hectic week i've had at work, but i'll let you know by weeknotes 14 if that has changed. we had a department general assembly and aligned with filipino workplace bullying culture, my fellow new hires and i sang some lines of top of the world.

in the spirit of oversharing, i have broken my almost one year streak of not taking a xanax. the growing list of 'things to say to my shrink in our next appointment' is now something like this:

come to think of it, i had a dream just last night that i was talking to my female counselor back in uni but it had a general vibe akin to a nightmare.

 

i need to be released from the starbucks chokehold

this week i've ordered a lot of coffee and tea, most of it from starbucks. i don't even like starbucks as a coffee shop. i hate that it has become the safest option for me whenever i want to get coffee and work outside. i promise to venture out of my comfort zone one of these days. but in the mean time, i'm growing out of my comfort orders.

baby steps. i tried ordering coffee and pastry that are not iced white mocha and the four cheese flatbread. i wanted something not sugary, and i wanted to recreate1 my usual instant ground coffee + milk, no sugar recipe at home so i ended up with an iced cafe latte, sub breve2 and only one pump of vanilla syrup.

i also tried the new calamansi cheesecake and i love it so much!!!

as i'm writing this, i'm at a starbucks yet again having tried the new pistachio lava crunch frappe3 and a dark chocolate mousse cake. the cake was only when paired with bitter coffee. i'd still go with my calamansi cheesecake over this.

 

kids animation, my comfort media

despite having a letterboxd top 4 and a list of my favorite movies, i think kids animation will always be a different kind of comfort for me. perhaps it's because i'm easily entertained by good art styles and subtle innuendos meant for adults4. this week my depression was threatening to fight its way back to my body. all the rest of my hobbies didn't work, but i ended up watching soul (2020) and rewatching swapped (2026) with my mom. it's also extra fun when i turn on the tagalog dub (like i did with my first watch of leo [2023] and orion and the dark [2024]).

 

on playing stardew valley and animal crossing: new horizons at the same time

over the long weekend i spent 4 hours at a starbucks planning the layout of my new meadowlands farm, and another 3 hours doing for the first time a 3d layout of my acnh island. i think this is a testament of how much control i need in my life right now lol. i'm unraveling

 

the kindle story

a few weeks ago i had to sell my kindle paperwhite 5 SE. it had a very interesting backstory. a year ago, when i was still in uni, i bought it secondhand from E, who was trying to stay float while in between employment. i could tell the kindle really meant a lot for her. her eyes were glassy when we parted ways at the food court of the gateway mall. i promised her i'd take really good care of it. and just this month, i found myself in the exact situation she used to be in5. i didn't want to sell the kindle, but i asked if she would like to have it back. in my head, it was the only condition i'd allow myself to sell it.

we found ourselves, a year after we first met, at the same spot but in completely different chapters of our lives. once again meeting to exchange a kindle unit.

E noted how the last time we met, i was still wearing my white clinical uniform. there she was in front of me again, but now more financially secure and thriving. i'm so happy for this stranger whom i've only met once before in my life.

why am i writing about this in this weeknotes? well, because i miss her kindle. i miss having an e-reader in general. i'm gonna get one very soon, but i've decided on getting a kobo libra colour instead. i'm so so excited

 

media i've consumed this week:

journal entries: 3

times i went outside the house: 5

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  1. the irony of wanting to recreate a homemade drink at a starbucks↩

  2. i'm a coward who said half-and-half instead↩

  3. it was so bad that, for the first time in my life, i had to ask the barista to exchange my drink (my entire skeletal system was shaking throughout the interaction)↩

  4. not necessarily dirty jokes. more like dark, crippling, existentialist jokes?↩

  5. to be politically correct, i'm already employed. but i was expecting my first pay to be delayed because...... well, ph government↩

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